THE FRAGRANCE OF
GOD’S HEALING PRESENCE
From a meditation by William of Saint-Thierry
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Lord, you are pitying and merciful, patient and kind beyond all measure.
You are gracious to all, and your compassions rest on all your works. You
yourself exhort us, Lord, to pray and to watch in prayer; so does your Holy
Spirit. You exhort us and teach us to do so, out of your tenderness and pity and
your will to show us mercy. And you make out our case beforehand for us,
establishing for us judgment and justice, so that, if we pray as we should, you
may have just cause for showing mercy. And you have fixed for us even our form
of prayer, so that you, who are for us both judge and advocate, may in no respect
fail us in our cause. And you have told us to ask boldly in your name, and to
believe that we shall receive whatever we have asked, and that those things for
which we pray will come to pass.
It is your goodness, Lord, that leads you to do this; we, on the other hand,
are bound by grim necessity. And yet, in spite of all your exhortation, we are
slow to pray; in spite of your bidding we neglect to do it, and we do not believe
your promises. Nevertheless, you in your mercy and your great compassion
rouse the slothful and the negligent; your patience overlooks our lack of trust.
And further, since we neither know how to pray aright, nor have the power to do
so, you send your Holy Spirit, that he may help our weakness and intercede for
us with groanings that cannot be uttered.
We pray, therefore, because you tell us to do so; we ask with confidence,
because we have your promise; and forthwith you run to meet us and answer
our prayer, finding in us a ground for your forgiveness, because you have
yourself made us forgivable.
Loving as you are, O Lord, now you multiply your loving-kindness on us
all, and we begin to see your mercies that are over all your works. For when, O
God, instead of fleeing from us, you begin to draw near and to rejoice our spirits
with your consolation, the soul’s dead senses catch the fragrance of your healing
presence and perceive its touch, and forthwith come to life; faith leaps up and
confidence is cheered; the heart is kindled, and tears run down to fan the new-lit
fire, not to quench it.
When your Spirit helps our weakness thus, your sweetness moves us to
weep copious floods of sweet and fruitful tears; and when your loving-comfort
wipes the tears away, they flow the more profusely and become our meat by day
and night, a strong and pleasant food. For it is a happy thing for us who are your
people and the sheep of your pasture, O Lord our God, to weep before you who
are our Creator.